Work days are not easy. Setting boundaries when no one is there to enforce them, except yourself, if challenging.
having faith that the answer will be found along a dark path is not easy.
Today. today was a golden opportunity that I seized for the first time. heh(zeb.)
All chores were accomplished and I learned what can be done in five minutes. Today was a new feeling and I surely hope it's the sign of a lasting change.
@ http://www.pomodorotechnique.com/ This technique was just introduced to me last night, and I haven't fully researched the method, but what I did find today was that time did not matter, as much as I was being a part of it, not worrying and getting things done. This technique seems to have found me just when I was ready for it, though.
Anyway, enough with the positivity.
What is there to feel when a good day has been had? Where am I supposed to feel the discomfort? I know that this day is ending soon and I'm not trying to hold on to the good feelings, but they are lasting and I am tired.
Today's Stats:
Tasks accomplished in five minutes or less:
Swept kitchen
shuffled laundry
emptied dishwasher and compost
around 60+ pull ups or so
I learned today:
My hard drive has a gyro effect when I move it (obviously.)
My home is falling apart. Yet, I don't know how else I'm to take care of the situation, other than go about life as it needs me. Fortunately, I'm out 10 miles away in a quiet home in the comfort of my family, missing all the immediate discomfort.
This change has been a long time coming and we've all been very close and have been preparing for the change. Now that it's here, we're all just going with the flow and trucking along.
Today's Stats:
Consumed Undercooked butterscotch brownie
Money spent at the pump: $40
containers of sunflower butter acquired: 1
Send mail to friends. Reduce reliance on the internet.
Portland is a hole of artistic saturation. I strive to find these nooks where I am able to believe most people have not yet discovered.
Portland's radio feed is clear and interesting.
I found this app for my phone a couple days ago. It takes me back to my childhood when we visited my dad's parents. They always had the scanner on. The news in Roseburg, Or was more often than not about someone speeding over Rice Hill.
Yesterday the on the portland scanner they were in-pursuit of a drug dealer in my Mom's mom's neighborhood in NE portland. Same neighborhood I was born into. Very Fun.
Today's Stats:
woke up at 6:20a
have already wasted 2.2 hours browsing the internet.
two people deleted me from facebook in the last two days. ??
As an individual, I am growing now. We all grow everyday, maybe. Sometimes the differences are more obvious or pronounced. Waking up early is becoming an option, and having energy is too. There's an anger in me, and I'm still unsure what it means. While some things in the world around me are definitely aiding toward my explosion, there also must be a large portion to my failure to recognize and meet my needs.
Stats of the day:
Attended one bachelor party
Smoked two cigs
consumed no brews
money lost to texas hold 'em: $5
Years lived in Portland: most of them.
Desire to see anything else: most of it.
collected meh photos.
Started one flier for a volunteer project. HELL YES.
The caption goes, "Hi Grandma! I called to tell you that Luke proposed to me today."*pauses while grandma speaks* "Yeah we're getting married this August!" Enters Photo:
I will be for sure attending five weddings this year. Possibly six if certain circumstances remain.
Today's facts:
Purchased one Hotlips Hawaiian/Pepperoni for engagement party.
Rode a Mt. Bike with no brakes across town.
Saw puffy clouds.
Laughed much but am generally feeling easily angered.
This lady was running from the police through I-405. She took the 6th ave exit and t-boned a minivan.
Really, there's nothing to report here other than I was able to be near something that doesn't normally happen. Other notes from this, the woman who was hit is fine, and so is the German shepherd that was caged in the back seat.
I didn't understand why some people were laughing at the cartoon bear olympic mascot, "Pedobear."
Turns out it was either a mixup, or a prank the paper played.
Well, after a google search. Here's what I found
I was disturbed but laughing at this,
But, going further into the pages of the website revealed others which I thought were, well, enticing me to laugh, but were still completely heartbreaking,
That's all. Here's a song I enjoy listening to. similar to radiohead.
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